As we speak of the Holy Spirit we must have a scriptural and experiential knowledge of Who He is and what He does with respect to our Spiritual growth and development. He is always providing intimate counsel to spirit led believers He reveals, confirms, empowers, transforms, and exhorts us on this faith journey. He identifies things in our spirit that we would not otherwise be aware of apart from the light of His presence.
There are some things that have happened in my walk with the Lord that have opened my eyes to see things in the Spirit that I would have missed or failed to address without His illumination of my heart and mind.
The faith journey traverses a course of many life variables. Along the way we experience things which touch us deeply and impact our lives significantly. At times we wrestle with the emotions that are produced in those things which are traumatic and painful. We can either look for God’s pity or for His deliverance. We can rationalize negative attitudes and we can attempt to justify a victim mentality. Life is not fair and there will always be injustice or inequity, and none of us will be exempt from the painful experiences of life. How we process the things that we perceive to be unjust and hurtful will either reflect the grace of God at work in our hearts and minds or the poisoning of our minds and hearts. Toxicity within our personal lives will lead to toxic attitudes, toxic interactions, relationships, and toxicity in every other part of our lives.
When we view ourselves as perpetual victims we are prone to seeking God’s pity. We tend to justify animous toward those who have offended us. It is at this time we may cease to seek deliverance from the victim’s mentality choosing rather to bathe in the stew of self pity, resentment, damaged emotions, a misaligned mindset and an untransformed heart. Most of the time this is disguised beneath rationalizations, citations of the wrongs we perceive to have been perpetuated against us, and a withdrawal from God’s calling upon our lives. Transformation ceases, and we speak death instead of life and instead of putting the unrighteous attitude to death, we enthrone it on the seat of our hearts. That being said, to enthrone anything upon our hearts other than the Lord Jesus Christ, is offensive to God. So that would make it evident that a poisoned attitude of the mind and heart are offensive to the Lord and poisonous.
One evening as I was reflecting upon things that had been sources of stress and pain, I sought to pursue God’s understanding of my sense of personal injury and self pity. The Holy Spirit did not validate the toxic attitudes of my mind and my self absorbed tendencies to nurse wounded-ness. God spoke into my heart about the manner in which I was cradling the hideous offspring of a toxic disposition. He began to shed light on things that had been neglected in my spiritual walk. I had not afforded the Holy Spirit the time to speak to me in a manner that would have led me to wholeness and right alignment with God. He broke me, and this time the broken-ness was transformational rather than crippling. He did as the palmist spoke of when He said,” he restores my soul.”
Our attitudes and actions either introduce others to transformation or toxicity. A sour spirit reflects toxic advancement in a believer’s life. When the well is tainted, all who come to it for refreshment will be offered waters that are bitter, and poisonous.
God has saved us from sin and from the enslaved lifestyle that is universal to life without Christ. He has called us out of darkness and into the light. Even when walking in the light, we limp when we could run if we are crippled by spiritual toxins.
It is healthy to evaluate:
* Are my thoughts predominately negative, cynical, and misaligned with Scripture?
* Are my relationships with others focused on giving or consistently receiving?
* Are my words introducing life or death into my interactions with others?
* Do I take pleasure in serving Christ and others, or am I resentful toward others?
* Do I focus on godly virtues or is my mindset toxically judgmental of others?
* If I am a well, when others come to me for refreshment do I offer them fresh or tainted water?
* Am I at peace with who I am in Christ or am I driven by the need for validation from others?
I need God’s deliverance more than I need His pity. God does not merely pity as we are immersed in things that poison the Spirit and the mind. He desires to deliver us out of them. His hand is extended, will we take hold of it?
I hate them with perfect hatred;I count them my enemies.
Search me, O God, and know my heart;Try me, and know my anxieties;
And see if there is any wicked way in me,And lead me in the way everlasting.
10 Out of the same mouth proceed blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not to be so. 11 Does a spring send forth fresh water and bitter from the same opening? 12 Can a fig tree, my brethren, bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Thus no spring yields both salt water and fresh.
13 Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show by good conduct that his works are done in the meekness of wisdom. 14 But if you have bitter envy and self-seeking in your hearts, do not boast and lie against the truth.